steps in employment..

i got up and got ready for the day. then fredrick drove me to get my nails done quick and then my job coach came to my place, she helped me so i figured out where to go (on my cell phone) to have my zoom interview for the data entry job. during the interview, i told the lady who i've been talking to the job about my work experience and she told me that she scheduled me for another zoom interview tomorrow with her supervisor and her. i hope this is a step to getting the job. it's on-site and a contract job. i feel like i need to work on-site jobs to be motivated to actually work hard and get outta the house. i'm not really interested in remote jobs. i don't THINK i've ever actually worked one to honestly judge though- i'm not interested in really trying it out either.. although for some reason, i remember the lady telling me this was an on-site AND remote job. so i might be able to find out personally how both jobs are. i'm just happy that someone gave me an opportunity to work.
i had an appointment at learningrx that i forgot to write on my calendar today and the tutor called me and told me that i could reschedule the appointment, so i rescheduled the appointment. the guy who assessed me said they couldn't use results from learningrx to get my license but i'd like to work on my cognition, so i can pass the cognitive test i need to pass to drive. i have a feeling none of what i really do will matter because of my LACK of advocacy. i can't say i didn't try though.. so i'll just always remember exactly why i wasn't able to progress in life and more than likely disown my family (except joe) and move FAR AWAY to where i can actually get resources and support to be TRULY SUCCESSFUL. that doesn't include allowing courage kenny telling me i'm not able to get better and sucking as much money as they can get out of me while not ACTUALLY helping me get better and more able to do everyday tasks because MY FAMILY IS TOO DAMN STUPID TO HAVE THE KNOWLEDGE OF WHAT I REALLY NEED TO DO TO BE MORE CAPABLE AND ABLE TO DO EVERYDAY TASKS. COURAGE KENNY KNOWS THAT WHICH IS WHY THEY KEPT TELLING ME I NEED THERAPY EVERY TIME I'D GO TO THEIR DRIVING ASSESSMENT (WHICH I ACTUALLY PASSED WHEN I PAID OUT OF POCKET FOR IT). my family cares more about the image of being looked at as "caring".. if they ACTUALLY cared about ME- they'd be supportive of what i wanna do in life.. NOT JUST WHAT'S CONVENIENT AND BENEFICIAL FOR THEM. all those bastards at courage kenny have done for me is show me that my family (except joe) REALLY doesn't give a fuck about me. they're selfish and they care too much about appearing "CARING" which they are NOT but nobody really knows since i don't live around them and i don't talk to the people they LIE to. i have absolutely no desire to talk to them or backtrack my progression JUST to live depressed and haul my ass back and forth to courage kenny. i can't remember how many times i drove my wheelchair out to the highway when i used a damn wheelchair for my family's convenience and basically lived HOW AND WHERE I LIVED FOR THEIR CONVENIENCE and thought about driving on it IN THE MIDDLE OF TRAFFIC since people obviously don't REALLY care about me because if they DID- they'd be trying to make sure all MY GOALS WERE ACCOMPLISHED since this IS MY life. not my mentally disabled mom's. not her flying monkeys. not amanda's. MINE. i never want to see or talk to my mom again since she obviously doesn't really care about ME because she can't even realize that the only reason why i ran off and got in an accident was to ESCAPE her stupid ass and how my family seems to think they can dictate how i live my damn life. mind your business. that goes for you too, fat amy (the YOUNGEST mistake of my family- your fat ass isn't innocent in this).